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And If I Die Before I Wake...

by Alexial DeTeersa

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Goodnight, my love
Close your eyes
Dear Lord, watch over our children as
A Shepherd would his flock
If I die before I wake,
I ask the Lord my soul to take
If Hell is what is given,
Hell is what I will take
Come Heaven
Come Hell
By your side I will be always
Lullaby, sweet angel
Go to sleep
If I die before I wake,
I ask the Lord my soul to take
White...
Black
Life...
Death
Light...
Darkness
Holy...
Evil
And if I die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take...
Pain
Torture
Loss
Death
Blood
Flesh
Bone
Death
Breaking, broken
Torn
Blood,
Blood,
Blood
And if I die before I wake,
I beseech the Lord my soul to take...
Darkness
Evil
Death
Ruin
Unholy
Predator
Prey
Broken,
Broken,
Broken...
And if I die before I wake,
I beseech the Lord my soul to take...
Stumbling,
Tripping,
Fallen
Falling
Falling
Falling...
And if I die before I wake,
I beg the Lord my soul to take...
To tear
To rip
To shred
For anything as unholy
As dark
As evil as I
Surely cannot ask the Lord to watch
Over me as a Shepherd would his flock
Give me what I deserve
I once said I would stand Hell,
And I have done so
Relieve me
Relieve me
Help me...
Make me, break me
Hurt me, rip me,
Tear me, kill me
And if I die before I wake,
I beg the Lord my soul to take...
And if I die before I wake,
I beg the Lord my soul to break...

This is also one of the 'theme poems', if you will. This is for Luna, Shadow's sister. She was nearly killed by a gang of bandits when she was 'adopted' by the Drow: the Dark Elves. She was kept as something as a pet, and one of her beautiful white dove wings was literally torn from her body. Because of its loss, she will never again be able to fly.

As she lived in Menzoberranzan, the largest city of Dark Elves, the pure evil of the city slowly permiated her body. As her soul grew darker, so did her wings: bleeding slowly from their pure, innocent white into black. She quite literally went insane, I suppose, and now she lives to avenge her lost siblings. I'll explain more about this when I put the stories up.